hmm.....

its a quit thing to fall. it sneaks up on u. in everything we do we look to the best out come and pray and hope it works but most the time we never get what we were shooting for. I'm wanting to be a shrink and the craziest thing is I'm the most screwed up person i know. Dating its never worked out for me, but for some reason i keep trying. there is something about me that when a girl gets close she runs from. I'm a very loud and outgoing funny person its because its easy for people to see that and move on. i guess you could say i have a fear of losing people i hate being alone more than anything. only one person has really seen every side of me and has not left,but in a way she is. some people say family they never leave or a good core group of friends is the key and some say being alone is the best way. i haven't figured that out yet. maybe I'm meant to be alone maybe that's what god has planed for my life,but at this point here and now i don't really have a choice. I've hit rock bottom before the difference between then and now is i see it coming.

Lose Change

making a change
i cant help but hang
on every word u say
with the lights fading
and my eyes hazy
my thoughts of you
will be what saves me
i cant help but hold on to you
and make a picnic for two
could u make since of this
riddle of fantasies u call realty
wrap your arms around me and never look back
i just want to make u believe
your the one you'll see
that all your dreams are me

E.O.

trip to STL

so our trip begins with one of the worst crashes I've seen in a very long time right in front of the church. i had to go all the way to republic and go the back way it was SO crazy. after we lever every things going smoothly we get to this pretty cool church i must admit. a lot of colorful people go there it was fun. but anyways we crashed there and started the real reason we came down missions.lol we get are instructions and where were going and i really had no idea what to expect but we ended up on the door step of more than carpenty. after getting a cooler full of water dumped on me(thanks Shawn) we meet Jim the owner. the plan for this amazing ministry was to turn this amazing wear house in to a school/workshop/bible study for guys no one will hire and don't have a way to make money in one of the top twenty poorest towns in USA where the wear house was located. he split us up in to two teams i was on the carry heavy things up stairs for 5 hours team then sweep this 10000 square feet floor. it was on of the most amazing and funnest things I've ever done. :))) we had a lot of stuff go wrong before and on the trip but i realised what we got done was way worth more then anything that got canceled. it was a huge blessing and I'm SO glad i went. :)

TRANCE o how it moves me. :)

So over the years ive deff changed music tast being the biggest. with the help of some pretty amazing friends ive found the music that touches me,moves me. i dont think most people know this but a kinda secret dream of mine is to be a dj. not radio dj but a trance progrisve music maker. with the likes of Armin Van Buurn DJ Tiesto Andy Hunter Paul Van Dyk and Ferry Corsten many more they inspire me. i mean when the style they play duly named trance thats what it does it just sucks u in. If i could sugjest anything to anyone who reads my stuff is to hit up some of the artists ive listed its deff worth the time.

thanks for reading E.O.

SuPerfLY TimE BOmb

hey lush, have fun
it's the weekend
feel free to be what u want
its kinda sad your still not
take care of your friends
because there all you got
don't leave and give up
you'll find its never bad enough
now that times are rough
i wish u weren't worth the wait
because there's some thing's
I'd like to say to you
but i will start new
now that its through
I don't think that
you know what
you've been missing
Just forget me
it's that simple

Everette Orange

Falling Fast In To Your Arms

all around I fall apart
slowly surely I cant stop
all I've torn
all I've run to the ground
its all broken down
can you please help me
help me get thought it
please come mend it all
falling out
falling through
fall apart
and endless cycle once it starts
plan B plan C watch it go
and crumble into broken hopes
days are slipping through my hands like sand
and to make it worse
I've made a mess of this
can you make any sense of this
anything but you is worthless
I'm helpless and your all that's left
and yet you still love me
I'm not worthy

Everette Orange

Chaos

I can’t avoid what I can’t control
I cant plan my next move
it’s hard to trust anyone again,
its hard to even let you in,
after all the let downs I’ve been through
complication is my claim to fame,
I gave this twisted game its name
fighting for something that wont change anything
making my stand
I’m losing ground still I can’t stand down
look in my eyes you'll see the man I am
and I’m screaming out give me help somehow
help me find a way out
I know you stay true when my world is false
even when everything around is breaking down to chaos
I always see you when my sight is lost
once everything around is down to chaos

Everette Orange

Jehovah

Jesus Christ
Are you the son of God
I want to know
You ask that I believe
I need you now more then ever
Help me save
Help me love
Help me breath
I fall to my knees
As i fight the feeling I'm a useless need
The faint whispers of a dark voice fills all
Giving in will be the death of me
Fitting in is the mask i wear
I pray for God to come and heal my ears to hear,
To heal my eyes to see
See what you would have of me
I need strength to survive
Jesus Christ
Are you the savior of the world
I want to see
But I still believe
Always believe.

Everette Orange