a moment

Hmmm.....what to wright about if only i had some amazing poetic words for the feeling i have. you know those moments in movies where the every sound but the perfect song cut out and its like a perfect moment. I've always wondered if they were sprung on by the song or the fact its a perfect moment. for me when i find a perfect song for the day it just makes that day unforgettable. i wish sometimes stuff was diff like when it gets bad the sound could just fade away and the music that sets your soul free play and you not have a care in the world but that minute and that person your with. I've joked about hieing someone to walk behind me with a radio playing every minute of every day if only it was that simple. well here's to man inventing something to make life more like amazing movies i would so be down for that.

with hope you stay the amazing person you are
Ethan

crazy

But now my mind is all crazy, crazy, crazy...
They got me thinking i inhuman,
Like I came in from above, above, above...
Feeling like a airplane in the sky
But then they say I'm crazy, crazy, crazy...
They got me thinking i inhuman,
Like I came in from above, above, above...
Feeling like a bird slitting high.


this kinda puts in to words how im feeling right now. idk how to xsplane it the words arnt comeing to me much anymore but maybe you can make since of it all.

so this blog is about months and how its funny how they repeat them self's for me. like DEC that's always be a really good month for me um Aug sooo bad Jan and Feb the worst April through July really good. don't ask me why but its hard to plan for stuff coming at you but you gotta do the best you can. I'm the worst at falling for a certain girl and it kills when it happens. my life is at a really weird place the thing i made my world spin around is leaving and idk whats going to happen. I'm really scared soooooooooooooo scared and its getting worse like a climax and I'm sooo freaked out. just pray for me.

trip to the lake

so the morning of the trip my gf over and broke up with me. so right off the bat the trip was off to a patchy start,but i was on a mission to have fun!!
so with trips to the lake,board,games,movies,x games it was amazing. even tho im bad with break ups i think ill be ok this time and ill make it. thanks for the prayers and thank u elise for reading this ;).


on a side note ive kinda done some soul searching and just medatateing and its done me alot of good im makeing alot of changes and becomeing a better person. im so xsited to see what lifes going to bring and im happy about it. :)