so this blog is about months and how its funny how they repeat them self's for me. like DEC that's always be a really good month for me um Aug sooo bad Jan and Feb the worst April through July really good. don't ask me why but its hard to plan for stuff coming at you but you gotta do the best you can. I'm the worst at falling for a certain girl and it kills when it happens. my life is at a really weird place the thing i made my world spin around is leaving and idk whats going to happen. I'm really scared soooooooooooooo scared and its getting worse like a climax and I'm sooo freaked out. just pray for me.